Wondering..

Am I infatuated or what? Right now, I dunno where to find myself. I don't want to hurt my bf's feelings but right now, I could say I like my special friend. :(

But..

My special friend's still in love with his ex gf. And I was like an option since his ex gf's has an estranged bf again. :(

We talked for 3 minutes last night, and twas unusual. He's drank with his friends and he's shouting..
"MYLAB! ADIK! ILOVEYOU!" toinks. I salute every alcoholic drinks in the world, that courage to say stupid things your game and with that, CHEERS!! :D

I simply told him, "I'll just called you some other time.."

last night was not so good for me, I need someone to talked to me, make me laughed and forget that I'm having problems. I felt relieved when I heard his voice, though we didn't talked that much, hearing him laugh and say stupid things made me laugh for a while.

He made me smile though deep inside, my bf made me sad. :(