hmmm. just thinking.

I tried not to text nor call DAKILA. I missed his voice, his funny lines, his words of wisdom and his never ending laugh that could make me, burst into laughter also. :|

Sana may powers ako para any moment makapunta na ko sa tabi niya, or sana nababasa ko yung nasa isip niya, para alam ko kung naiisip o namimiss o mahal ba niya ko talaga. WEW!

>.<

Missing my man.

He kept his promise, never to disturb me, and that made me miss him.
I know I'm making a fool out of him, but.. Honestly, I can't let go of him and I'm a coward.
I'm selfish and aaaargggh!

Badtrip. >.<

we talked as if there's no more tomorrow.

English muna.


Yeah. We talked for like 3hours(?). Twas happiness for me. The feeling that someone's appreciating your existence and at the same time letting you feel that you don't need a commitment to become HAPPY and CONTENTED. lol.


Tagalog naman. 


Nakakatuwa siyang kausap, kahit hirap na hirap na ko na magtanong, lagi lang niyang sasabihin, "Sige lang.. Tanung ka pa.." at pagkatapos nun, sasagot naman siya ng matipid na  OO, HINDI, PWEDE. Para lang kaming nagPipinoy Henyo. :))


Meron pa na nagHeart to heart talk kami. Hahahah. Naalala ko na nakwento ko ulit sa kanya yung naging ex ko, na talaga namang natatawa na ako dahil alam nameng dalawa na siya ang pinapatungkulan ko. Yesss. Ex ko ang special friend ko. :))


English ulit.


I love this feeling, tis really exciting. Hahahah. We talked from 11:45pm till 3:00am. I just bade goodnight when I realized that Mama will soon be wake up. :))


He's the best! :D

I saw her..

Not in person, but in Facebook. I can't help but to compare myself to her. Fool me.
Nah. I should have believed with what he told me last night, never to compare myself to anyone because every human has their own unique qualities that makes them special. Get it boy~

As I was stalking her FB profile, it made me realize, I can't go further than what she has done to his life. Even their family ties were stronger as I thought.

Could I also do it? :(

How can I be that close to you? :|

Presenting...

This is my special friend, Arnold Alvarez..

We met 3 years ago, but we don't know each other, he saw me during the town fiesta in Batangas. And last summer vacation (2010), we had the chance to be introduced. ;)

He's a typical boy living in a province. :)

Wondering..

Am I infatuated or what? Right now, I dunno where to find myself. I don't want to hurt my bf's feelings but right now, I could say I like my special friend. :(

But..

My special friend's still in love with his ex gf. And I was like an option since his ex gf's has an estranged bf again. :(

We talked for 3 minutes last night, and twas unusual. He's drank with his friends and he's shouting..
"MYLAB! ADIK! ILOVEYOU!" toinks. I salute every alcoholic drinks in the world, that courage to say stupid things your game and with that, CHEERS!! :D

I simply told him, "I'll just called you some other time.."

last night was not so good for me, I need someone to talked to me, make me laughed and forget that I'm having problems. I felt relieved when I heard his voice, though we didn't talked that much, hearing him laugh and say stupid things made me laugh for a while.

He made me smile though deep inside, my bf made me sad. :(

Confessions..

I tried to confessed everything to my sister, twas kinda weird that she didn't gave me a positive nor a negative reaction, just a plain, "What's your plan?" And I was like, "Uhmm. Ive got no plans.."

Really, this shitty feeling I have right now's making me TORTURED.

errr

I like my friend. Period.

still attached..

Yes. Adik and me met last April 29-30. It was fun. I enjoyed every minute I'd spent with him, though really we hadn't talked that much. Seeing him from a distance makes me happy. That happiness was immeasurable.
After all that happened, yes I still like him so much. But sadly, I can't tell it to my bf, because I know he'll gonna ask me questions and I'm not ready to answer any. Arnold's an ex bf and Angel(my bf) doesn't even know that.

Arnold still like me. He told me that and I'm pressured. Yes I am.
But I know, I need to do what's right.

Adik and I will always be attached with each other. I consider him as my CLOWN. He knows that and he's happy to know that I'm happy when we talk.

:)